Picture a field covered with flowers,fresh and pure
Imagine a sunrise over mountain,bringing warmth
View the stars,on an open field away from the city
Look at a new born baby,sweet and innocent
Watch a river run,from under a wooden bridge
Envision a forest,on the first day of spring
Remember a snow covered creek,just after a winter storm
Behold the ocean,in the middle of the night

Standing still in the present,touching the past

Standing still in the flashing present
Capturing all the emotions into my heart
Running through the memories of the past
Feeling the essence of nostalgia riding over me
Clouds turning dark, looming over my head
I stand still, thoughts running wild
Unfaltering, I stand through the night.
Darkness seeping into me, totally drenching me
Blurring the light of the present
Pushing me to the memories of the past
Where I stand unfaltering
Succumbing to the nostalgia of the past

hmmmmmmmm

I am in school right now together with my PW members and we are all rushing through the changes that we have to make in our Written Report.Well well, PW will be over soon : )

Sudden thoughts about Bry are rushing through my head and suddenly i feel as if im walking down a lane where pictures of us just keeps flashing through my mind.The smiles and the memories keep me going and I remember the day when we first became friends.It was also the day when he squirted chilli sauce on me.It was the day when i thought he was the most arrogant idiot that i have ever set my eyes upon.But now i realise that i was so wrong about him.He is actually the sweetest and the most humble person i have ever known.Bry, i would miss ya.Seriously i will miss ya once u leave S'pore. I have always felt the warmth of ur friendship through the care and concern that u have always shown me. Sometimes i feel as if u r an angel.An angel sent down to earth to guide me through life.An angel who is here just to make sure i am alright.I love u Bry and i always will.

Life they say is a picture of an endless road.A road where one can only dream about the end and not see it.There is always a beginning to an end.Even after death, there is a beginning to life in another world.Death seems so far away but yet i get that errie feeling that death is just lurking somewhere in the shadows while waiting silently for its next prey.

You Guys Lite up My Life.Love.

Love.Many yearn for it.Do you? Money.Many love it.Do you? Many people believe that money conquers the world but the truth is that, love makes the world go round, although money brings superficial happiness for a limited period of time. I am thankful for all the love from my loved ones.You guys have moulded me into this individual that i am right now.You guys have protected me when i felt afraid.You guys have comforted me when i was down.All in all, you guys have held my hands and guided me through this journey which i call life. Sometimes when i feel down, all i have to do is to close my eyes and think about all the wonderful memories that we have created.It has never failed to make me smile.Yet, it is the only thing that can make me cry coz i just want to go back in time and relieve those special moments.But then again, the minute i open my eyes, i am brought back to reality that i can't go back in time.You guys were special.Special in a very special way.Bry's leaving for Aussie soon and although i know he'll keep in touch with the rest of us, it just won't be the same without his presence.Bry,you know that we all love you.Go for your dreams and remember that no matter what,you'll hold a very special place in all our hearts and that is a place that no one can ever replace.I'll be missing you and so will the rest.

This was written by me a few days ago and it is for all my loved ones.I love you guys. Muacks.
LOVE is
a red rose touched by the morning dew
LOVE is
a new born baby fresh from a mother's womb
LOVE is
the laughter of a child, full of joy
LOVE is
the bond among like-minded souls, working as a team
LOVE is
the touch of a mother comforting her child
LOVE is
dancing to heartbeats of loved ones and going wild
LOVE is
the warm touch of summer and the fresh kiss of spring
LOVE is
the action which touches someone's heart
LOVE is
the colour of autumn, when leaves start to fall
LOVE is BEAUTIFUL,LOVE is KIND,LOVE is FORGIVING and most of all, LOVE is LOVE ONLY WHEN YOU SHARE IT WITH OTHERS

Each time i feel like giving up, you people hold my hand and guide me through this path
Each time i fail and cry, you people wipe my tears away
Each time i feel that i can't go on, you people push me to do my best
Each time i feel stressed, you people crack jokes just to make me laugh silly
All in short in all, Each time i feel LUCKY is all because of YOU PEOPLE!

People come and people go.Thats life.Some friends stay and some don't.Thats life.
True friends are hard to find and im glad that i have you people in my life.

Bryan-You have made me smile each time i cried.You have given me the definition to friendship and now i know that friendship means compromising.i love you.
Jezz-The babe who has never failed to be there when im studying and feeling stressed.The babe who is so beautiful both inside and outside.The one with the heart of gold.So giving and loving. You are my baby and will always be.
Mugesh-Sometimes you irritate me and i feel like killing you.Kidding kk. Thanx for being a great frend and no words can ever describe the place that your friendship has in my heart.Love you idiot ;)
Shanmugam-About 4 years and still counting.Never have i regretted knowing sucha frend like you. The times of studying and talking, i will never ever forget.Those are memories that i'll treasure for a lifetime.Friends till the end.Love you monkey ;)
Sanjeev-We may not be that close but each time you listen to me grumble without complaining. Thanx a zillion for being there when i just had to let it all out.Love ya ikan bilis.
Ramesh-Ur one of the sweetest guys i have ever known and you are my motivator and supporter.U'll always be my "asiriyar". Thanx for the memories at Sentosa.Love ya.
Ranthini-I miss you and all the memories of last year.You have been the best you could be just for ME.You'll always be my little sister and this i promise you.Love you sis.
Euphemia-Abt 5 years and counting.Although there were dark moments in this friendship, im so glad that i still have you.No matter what people say, this is what i have to say about you-->U are beautiful in every way and ur heart is one that gives and gives without expecting anything in return.You rock euphe and i just have to tell you that this friendship means alot to me. Lurve ya loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooottttttttttttttttttttttttsaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa babe.
Ruthra-Someone who has been there in every possible way.U have given me the faith to carry on, the strength to venture forth. Sometimes you just have to irritate me and i feel like ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.But that is just you, simply Ruthra.Thanx alot for all those times when u listened to all that i had to say.When's priyasaki??? : )Lurve ya monkey boy.
Shradha-Alot of incidents have brought us closer and im thankful for having sucha wonderful friend.We have our usual ups and downs, but i remember that you have been a great friend indeed.One who is loving and smiling, just like me.Remember that i'll be here to cheer you on in anything and everything.Never give up.Love ya sweetie.
Azim-My favourite sporty frend who is so enthu about all the pranks and plans that come up suddenly.One of the sweetest guys i have known and azim, thanx for all those seoul garden memories and also for all those funny talks we had."Can we go now???" : )
Judith-Never thought that i would get close to you, but i did.N im not regretting,not even a bit. Im glad we have reached this stage in our friendship where we just have to speak our minds freely.thanx for listening when i was down and also thanx a zilliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiionnnnn for all the moments that we shared.I love you babe.You n Hindrance make me smile.
Gwen-The gal with the sizziling temper and the fussiest attitude.But also the one who is so sweet, caring and full of love for her friends.History has brought us closer and remember "orchard rd" at Ngee Ann.Will never forget you esp coz of that.You are stronger than b4.Give ur best in everything ok? and dun be a hindrance to the society.lol.Kidding.Love ya POH CHIN!!!
Jade-Used to dislike you.But im glad that we able to voice our thoughts openly now.Thats frendship i say.Thanx for all the memories at seoul garden and de sch canteen.Keep smiling and remember that no matter what others say abt you,i promise to stick by you, even though u may be a hindrance at times.lol.Sorri sorri.Know ur laughing now right?HAHA! Lurve ya babe.
DX-My history helpline for last min help.Thanx for all those times when you explained to me the points over and over again.Thanx for the experience and wonderful memories with Cheng Teng and Calvin and also the rest at FOP 2005.
Jillene-Some1 who loves to eat.Just like me.But she eats super fast.lol.Remember the time at Bukit Timah, where we wanted to eat the chinese porridge???Haha.Will never forget seoul garden too.haha.Pw..........is a headache i know.We'll get tru it.Love u.
Johan-I miss all the talks that we had.Miss those times with the rest in Town.Miss the jokes and all most of all, i miss you.Love ya JoJo.
Shima-I love u so much honey.You are so stubborn and i guess that u will say that abt me too.Sometimes its hard to click with some1 who is so like me.But im glad that we click. I miss all our talks, shopping, walking, eating and slacking.Loving you n missing you sista.
Kapil-Though i have known for just a short time.You have been a good frend.One whom i can trust.Take care and bandari...hehe.Love ya buddy.

To all my loved ones-You guys have made me the person that i am today.I simply wanna say that i LOVE u GUYS So much for being a part of my life. Muacks.

Marriot Hotel and updates before Mid-Course

Finally.Exams are over.Well not really over cause there is still the MT AO paper for the actual A Levels which will take place on the 31st of Oct which is the eve of Deepavali.ARGGHHH.Also, not forgetting the subject which every1 hates--->PW! Though exams are over, we actually have to go back to school for PW.I mean seriously what THE HELL!!! Well well, i keep telling myself that it will pass soon and before i know it, it will be the end of the year and just a few more months for my actual A Level papers.I think im gonna do badly for the mid-course exams.I wouldn't say that i din't study.Coz that would be lying.I did study.But!But!But....whatever topics that i partially covered did not come out much esp for Lit,Econs and MT.Well, history wasn't that bad for SEA but the General Globalisation essay for IH totally Killed me.Im dead.Well its over and i guess there's not much that i can do now since time can't be reversed.Thats the reality of life.It stops for no one. Now its just the waiting for the results part that totally sucks.I can't blame any1 except for myself for not putting in enough effort right?

For the people who have been wanting to know about the story at Marriot and the days before my exams....This entry is for u guys---> esp for Shradha,Azim,Bryan,Sanjeev,Deen and Jezz.
On the 8th of Oct which was a Sat-->Miss Wang,Jud,Shrad and I were sitting at TCC at Citylink where Miss Wang was trying to get Econs into our heads.It did werk for abt an hour and then all our minds auto swtiched off.Haha.But the Mcq Q n A was useful and we realised that Diagnostic Test was Suppppppppppppppppppppppper EASY!!! Well, once again my own fault for not studying for de diagnostic test. After getting econs into our heads, all of us left TCC for home. Jud and Miss Wang took the train towards Woodlands while Shradz n i took the train towards Queenstown.I went home to get some stuff before we left for Marriot.Finally it was the meet of the best *friend-in-laws*. Met Shradha's mum and her aunt whom i got to know as Aunty Lily. Together with the whole lot of them, we went for Dinner at Burger King.When i think of BK, i think of Numinder and how he FORCED US to eat at BK when we wanted to eat at LJS.Neway, back to the story ya.After BK, we proceeded to the hotel room at Marriot Hotel and got changed into shorts.We prepared all the stuff that we need for economania later.Guess wat, shradz n i always do what we do before studying?Snacking and more snacking.But did we look like people who care abt what people think abt our unhealthy eating habits??? Haha.The answer is obvious right?Neway once we got ready our stuff, we slacked around for a while after which Shradz's mum made coffee for us and then we proceeded to the 2nd floor where we tried to study.We did study abit, but i guess,we were toooooooo tired to absorb much.Neway it was fun coz of all the teabags(ask Shradz coz its a secret btw close frends) and the Pens.Haha.It was fun and i guess we were eating more than studying.I love chocolate bread and all the sweets that we bought. We came to the 2nd floor at abt 12plus-1am and we left only at abt 4.30-5 am coz our eyes were practically half closed.But once we got to our room, Shradz n i washed up and started disturbing Ashwin.Haha.Im sorry Ashwin. : ) By 6am we went to bed only to wake up ard 8 for breakfast at the lounge(sunday).We ate lotsa different stuff but i guess we just weren't into our eating frenzy coz of the econs exam which was just a day away.After breakfast we went to Ascott's apartments poolside to study econs. I did manage to cover quite a lot for Short Run of which nothing much came out for the econs exams.Haiz.Well, while studying, Shradz n i went on a photo-taking frenzy where we just snapped and snapped and snapped.Shradz even went to the gym.Haha.What a studying session...haha.But seriously i had so muchcha fun except for the studying part.We went to Ascott's abt 11 and only left at 6pm.Haha.Went back to Marriot and met Shradha's dad.The 3 of us ended up snacking at the lounge once again.I simply love the tuna thingy.Then Shradz dad told us to hurry up and finish eating coz Kapil and his family were waiting for us at the Hotel room.Meeting Kapil was unexpected but it was nice to see a frend : )
Basically we just packed up and after abt 30mins, Kapil and his family left. Kapil is like sooo funnie.Haha.Basically he kept disturbing shradha.So mean right?Bad Kapil.Naughty Kapil : )
Neway after that, shradz family,Aunty Lily and i made our way to the lounge to have dessert. OMG...................the cakes were nice but SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRR RICH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think after staying at Marriot, i have began to feel fat. Neway after dessert all of us left for home. Reached home and told my mum abt the teabags after which she gave me a piercing stare and then she smiled.Haha. Was too tired to study for Econs so i slept though Kapil and Mugesh tried to call and wake me up.Obviously it didn't werk.haha.Sorry guys but thanx anyway for all ur support : ) You guys rock!!! Seriously rock.Though i din't wake up to study, i just feel so touched that u guys called me so many times to wake me up.THANX A MILLION. After econs, i was basically trying to cram my lazy mind with school stuff.Now that exams are unofficially over, shradz n i can go abt doing all the stuff that we have planned.Can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!! right shradha?

Now.Its a sat morning and i feel weird not having any school related stuff to do.Oh Ya, there is always PW.Haha.Gotta go coz i have lotsa baking and catching up to do with my LOVED ONES.




WiTh love as always,
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Don't know

I don't know what's this feeling thats coming over me.I don't know what im feeling.I don't know why im feeling the way i do.Maybe its just exam stress.Hopefully its just that.Was yakking to Bry just now and as usual he made me feel better.U rock Bry.Dun noe what i would do without you. Seriously, u light up my life in many ways and your simply god's gift to me.I LOVE YOU!!! : ) You r one of those who is able to make me laugh till i cry even when im pissed.Thanx for everything so far.

StoooPiD MonKey!!!

Yesterday.I met Faezah,Ricca and Jillene at Woodlands Lib to do our stooooooooopid written report.Haha.We were like supposed to meet at around 10 but Jillene came only at 12pm.Hehe.
While Faezah and i were doing research on the 3rd story,there was a power failure and the library was flooded with darkness.So cool right??? : ) Power failure or not we still had to do what we had to do, which was to find relevant materials for our WR. The four of us discussed on what we should put inside our WR and the tasks were equally divided among the 4 of us.M realli happy that finally we are starting to werk as a team.Better late than never anyway. After photocopying the stuff that we need, Jillene went home,Ricca stayed at the lib while Faezah n i proceeded to Long JS to eat. The tangerine sauce sux!!! really sux!!! Guess what...chin chye was late!!! After saying Hi to Gwen, Faezah left while chin chye and poh chin made their way to Ngee Ann poly.Haha. We walked around in Clementi first and bought lotsa snacks.ArggHHHHH.Im growing fat!!! Upon reaching Ngee ann we realised that the Lib was closed.Therefore we sat in the atrium and started EATING!!!! I repeat...we started EATING instead of STUDYING!!! Haha, food takes priority over books u know, because in order to study effectively, food is needed.For concentration...food is needed.See the importance of food.haha.Hmm, i need de exercise after all that snacking.Well, not that we kept eating only,we also studied!.Right Chin chye??? We managed to clear the writing structure for History essays and the main points for the origins of the Cold War. : ) Gwen's slippers broke and u Know what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She made me walk around "Orchard Road" barefooted with her.See, the things you do for friends sometimes.Haiz.*shakes head*. Naughty gwen.Really naughty. We did talk quite abit in between our study session.Talked abt life.Talked about the problems we faced and how we overcame the shit that we went through. Its ok Gwen, im proud that u became stronger after the problems.Problems will always be there no matter where on earth we are. We have gone through certain stuff in life and though we have lost certain stuff, at least we are stronger than before.WE r de UNTOUCHABLES : ) !!! Life was never smooth babe and whateva that we faced before has taught us valuable lessons and this are lessons that we should be proud to have learnt coz, these are the very lessons which have made us stronger than the rest. After the sharing of the shit we had in life, we went back to studying and we did cover a few MCQ questions for econs. Haha, i managed to do a "graph" question.Woooohooooooooooo : ) Neway after trying a few questions, we decided to leave and Gwen used my stapler to staple the torn part of her slippers together.I tell you, we looked like two idiots who came from some unknown part of the world. We walked slowly because Gwen was afraid that the stapled slipper will give way.Haha.We reali looked like fools.But who cared??? Haha.Maybe some cute guys who might have been wondering whats wrong with these 2 gals man!!! Thank God, we made our way to e shoe shop in clementi without Gwen's Stapled slippers tearing apart.Haha.That gal....haiz.*shakes head again*.Neway it was fun ok!!!How many people would get to walk around "orchard road" barefooted and wear stapled slippers???Haha. At the shoe shop, we were so busy looking for shoes and Wooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooo there were so many nice ones BUT...U see the BIG BUT??? BUT...we didn't have enough money to buy all the shoes that caught our eyes.*sob*sob* At last we managed to get a nice pair of shoes for each of us.Haha.Wooohoooooooooo.I love shopping. Once we walked out the shop with our purchases, Gwen went back in to exchange the ones she bought for 2 other pairs of slippers which was a damn good bargain. Decided to walk to the interchange and on the way, we saw clothes.Clothes and more clothes.But we had no money.Broke.Not really broke coz we still had a few dollars. Haha.Now we know where to shop next.A dollar a day is what we are gonna do.Its a secret recipe.A recipe which will make us happy : ) *grins*winks*. Gwen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i Want that ADIDAS jacket.Wooooohooooooooooooooooooooooooo, its a secret between us and no matter what, we are gonna buy that adidas jacket.Right Chin Chye??? wooohooooooooooooooooooooo!!! i love that jacket sia.Haiz.Must start saving. Neway after all that "shopping", Gwendi left for the MRT station while i took the bus back home while yakking to Sanjeev.That idiot made me sing songs to him.ArgHHHH.Came home, ate dinner with my Godfather and used the net for awhile before SLEEPING. I really badly wanted to wake up late the next day which is today.But some idiot by the name of Ruthra had to simply call me and wake me up just because he couldn't sleep.Irritating pest.Now im sleepy but i can't get to sleep.ArGGHHH!!! He woke me up and called me stooopid names which i shadn't write here.Its major humilating. Idiot.That monkey never fails to make me smile but yet, at the same time he never fails to irritate me also.I want to sleep but i can't. ARGGGHHHH.Summore i just had a cup of Coffee.Haiz.Stupid Ruthra.idiotic asshole. Monkey without brains.I seriously hope that u would not read this coz i dun wan you to irritate me further.ARGGHHHH!!! stop calling me Shortie ok??? i will buy you alcohol ok??? deaL??? Dream on monkey.Keep dreaming.haha : ) okok i will stop writing more about you coz i don't wan to get beaten up ok??? somebody "mandey" wat.Haha. Oops, did i just let the cat out of the bag??? sorrie.hehe. Neway g0odie luck for ur soccer game.Know that u will win.U always will. I admire ur soccer skills.Did i just praise you???Haha.Neway ur soccer skill is the only thing about you which is nice.Oops. : )KK, enough abt Ruthra coz im sure that you guys reading this would get bored when he's name is mentioned right??? On the account of my readers, i will stop talking abt u Ruthra!!! Right now im slacking away, want to sleep, but can't get to sleep.Haiz.
M gonna try to sleep and once i wake up, i have to cover alot of revision.


-Life is a road
A road full of bumps
Bumps are problems we face everyday.
Everyday is a battle,
A battle that we must fight
In order to survive the bumps that we meet in life.-


wiTh Lotsa LurVe,
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