It feels weird.On the other hand,it never felt right.even from the very start.

People change.its the truth.undeniably a fact too.I mean it has been bothering me for eons.it feels good to let it all out.to let my emotions show.to let the truth speak for itself.I can't possibly hide my feelings any longer.i can't run anymore.Yet,i can't stop to walk the road with you.sounds contradictory.but go figure.it makes sense.at least to me.I tried hard to ignore."Ignorance is bliss", the issue that always surfaces during my convo's with Euphe.Ran.Gwen.Gesh.Jeev.Others. Its indeed true that ignorance brings about a semblance of bliss but can we verily deny the fact that ignorance brings about mental torture too?the agonising debate that you have in your mind.to say or not to say.to do or not to do.I'm trying hard to follow the advice of MK and the rest of my 03 clique.its hard not to bother and to not be bothered.its hard to pretend that the world is perfect.its hard not to delve deeper into issues.But im gonna try.its a promise to them.the mark of a new ideology for me.the road seems long.the troubles seem never ending.the discordances never seem to stop.its a battle. within myself.around myself.its time to let it all go.time for a "brand new" start.the journey's definitely not gonna be easy.But i see a glimmer of hope.a ray of sunshine.faint light.

Finally, the damn depressing destruction of the mind boogling bloody block tests is over. its a screw up.im sure.a MAJOR screw up.shit happens.

I've been noticing something for quite some time.its bothering me.Thank God for the fantabulous wonderful friends.Friends who see me through each day with their words of wisdom and firm support. i treasure.i love.i care.

Its amazing how people can change and i mean CHANGE DRASTICALLY, within a period of 1 week. Well, i've made a decision after careful consideration.i'm gonna stand by what i believe.STRONGLY.FIRMLY.





I'm on my guard.

Comprehending.

Sometimes its really hard to comprehend why people behave the way they do. The world is selfish and denying that fact is just one of the superficial ways to escape from it. Selfishness is a disease, an epidemic.One that spreads and never stops until a kind soul of a different mentality sees it as their responsibility to change the typical mindset of most human beings. Life is short, so why not enjoy, smile and laugh till the cows come home, instead of bickering over the smallest things and hurling pain evoking words in anger? The nature of human beings is indeed one that is of controversy.Its complex, thus requiring one to be critical of oneself in order to understand the depth and perplexity of the entire issue. I was just reading an article about the complexities faced in the process of trying to understand a human being. Its not easy. I assume no one ever said it was. When people argue, for instance a boyfriend and his girlfriend, they would each automatically go, you simply don't understand me nor my feelings(this is just my assumption, though its a known truth). No one can ever understand another human being perfectly.Thats just how it is. Some people even find in tough understanding themselves.Its definitely not wrong if u can't understand yourself simply because understanding oneself comes from the trials and tribulation one faces throughout his journey of life. Well, experience matters. There's no point in shutting yourself out from the world, thinking that you'd be safe because experience in handling the complex issues of life comes from exposure to the world.

Its hard to let go.
But its even harder to move on.
Choices were made.
Hopes were dashed.
Dreams were wrecked.
Days became weeks.
Weeks became months.
Months became years.

The rest is history.

bits n pieces

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