Goodbye.

I really have to thank Gwen for being there especially yesterday and today. You are my rock of support too. I heart you many many babe. Its been an mindbogglingheartwrenchingemotionsswirling kinda journey for the past few weeks. Sometimes I wonder if all this is worth it because you make it seem that I have always been saying the wrong things and hence you end up getting hurt. But, honestly you leave me confused every time you speak. Maybe, and just maybe I shouldn't ask for much and just let you be because sometimes, somethings are just never meant to be. And maybe, like you have said, I have hurt you. But now, it depends on you to tell me if this is important to you. But if it isn't, then I guess I don't know what else to say. Goodbye.

Because Of You
I will not make
The same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break
The way you did, you fell so hard
I’ve learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way
And it’s not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that’s weakness in your eyes
I’m forced to fake
A smile, a laugh, every day of my life
My heart can’t possibly break
When it wasn’t even whole to start with

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
Because of you
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you I learned to play on the safe side so I don’t get hurt

Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don’t know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty
Because of you I am afraid

Because of you