Dec 3rd 17.36

Hey Guys, im like so terribly SORRY for not updating my bloggie nor keeping in touch coz im like busy with someone IMPORTANT!!!! Hehe!!! And that someone is my baby brother who was brought into this world on Dec 3rd 2005 at 17.36! He is just so adorable, someone who is able to make me smile just by looking at me.

To all who have been constantly msging or calling just to check if im alrite, THANX a MILLION guys!!! i am alrite.Just in a state of utter happiness and love for my baby brother.

It doesn't matter what we have in life. What matters the most is what we make out of what we have in life.Sometimes the world gives me so much reasons to hate. But each time when that happens,i sit down and think about the simplest things in life which have made me smile for so many times. Life is a pleasure.Maybe not that smooth going, but HELL ya........we get to live life the way we want it.So start perservering for all our dreams and living every second of our existence on earth to de fullest.


With Lotsa LurVe,
-smiLe-

Picture a field covered with flowers,fresh and pure
Imagine a sunrise over mountain,bringing warmth
View the stars,on an open field away from the city
Look at a new born baby,sweet and innocent
Watch a river run,from under a wooden bridge
Envision a forest,on the first day of spring
Remember a snow covered creek,just after a winter storm
Behold the ocean,in the middle of the night

Standing still in the present,touching the past

Standing still in the flashing present
Capturing all the emotions into my heart
Running through the memories of the past
Feeling the essence of nostalgia riding over me
Clouds turning dark, looming over my head
I stand still, thoughts running wild
Unfaltering, I stand through the night.
Darkness seeping into me, totally drenching me
Blurring the light of the present
Pushing me to the memories of the past
Where I stand unfaltering
Succumbing to the nostalgia of the past

hmmmmmmmm

I am in school right now together with my PW members and we are all rushing through the changes that we have to make in our Written Report.Well well, PW will be over soon : )

Sudden thoughts about Bry are rushing through my head and suddenly i feel as if im walking down a lane where pictures of us just keeps flashing through my mind.The smiles and the memories keep me going and I remember the day when we first became friends.It was also the day when he squirted chilli sauce on me.It was the day when i thought he was the most arrogant idiot that i have ever set my eyes upon.But now i realise that i was so wrong about him.He is actually the sweetest and the most humble person i have ever known.Bry, i would miss ya.Seriously i will miss ya once u leave S'pore. I have always felt the warmth of ur friendship through the care and concern that u have always shown me. Sometimes i feel as if u r an angel.An angel sent down to earth to guide me through life.An angel who is here just to make sure i am alright.I love u Bry and i always will.

Life they say is a picture of an endless road.A road where one can only dream about the end and not see it.There is always a beginning to an end.Even after death, there is a beginning to life in another world.Death seems so far away but yet i get that errie feeling that death is just lurking somewhere in the shadows while waiting silently for its next prey.

You Guys Lite up My Life.Love.

Love.Many yearn for it.Do you? Money.Many love it.Do you? Many people believe that money conquers the world but the truth is that, love makes the world go round, although money brings superficial happiness for a limited period of time. I am thankful for all the love from my loved ones.You guys have moulded me into this individual that i am right now.You guys have protected me when i felt afraid.You guys have comforted me when i was down.All in all, you guys have held my hands and guided me through this journey which i call life. Sometimes when i feel down, all i have to do is to close my eyes and think about all the wonderful memories that we have created.It has never failed to make me smile.Yet, it is the only thing that can make me cry coz i just want to go back in time and relieve those special moments.But then again, the minute i open my eyes, i am brought back to reality that i can't go back in time.You guys were special.Special in a very special way.Bry's leaving for Aussie soon and although i know he'll keep in touch with the rest of us, it just won't be the same without his presence.Bry,you know that we all love you.Go for your dreams and remember that no matter what,you'll hold a very special place in all our hearts and that is a place that no one can ever replace.I'll be missing you and so will the rest.

This was written by me a few days ago and it is for all my loved ones.I love you guys. Muacks.
LOVE is
a red rose touched by the morning dew
LOVE is
a new born baby fresh from a mother's womb
LOVE is
the laughter of a child, full of joy
LOVE is
the bond among like-minded souls, working as a team
LOVE is
the touch of a mother comforting her child
LOVE is
dancing to heartbeats of loved ones and going wild
LOVE is
the warm touch of summer and the fresh kiss of spring
LOVE is
the action which touches someone's heart
LOVE is
the colour of autumn, when leaves start to fall
LOVE is BEAUTIFUL,LOVE is KIND,LOVE is FORGIVING and most of all, LOVE is LOVE ONLY WHEN YOU SHARE IT WITH OTHERS

Each time i feel like giving up, you people hold my hand and guide me through this path
Each time i fail and cry, you people wipe my tears away
Each time i feel that i can't go on, you people push me to do my best
Each time i feel stressed, you people crack jokes just to make me laugh silly
All in short in all, Each time i feel LUCKY is all because of YOU PEOPLE!

People come and people go.Thats life.Some friends stay and some don't.Thats life.
True friends are hard to find and im glad that i have you people in my life.

Bryan-You have made me smile each time i cried.You have given me the definition to friendship and now i know that friendship means compromising.i love you.
Jezz-The babe who has never failed to be there when im studying and feeling stressed.The babe who is so beautiful both inside and outside.The one with the heart of gold.So giving and loving. You are my baby and will always be.
Mugesh-Sometimes you irritate me and i feel like killing you.Kidding kk. Thanx for being a great frend and no words can ever describe the place that your friendship has in my heart.Love you idiot ;)
Shanmugam-About 4 years and still counting.Never have i regretted knowing sucha frend like you. The times of studying and talking, i will never ever forget.Those are memories that i'll treasure for a lifetime.Friends till the end.Love you monkey ;)
Sanjeev-We may not be that close but each time you listen to me grumble without complaining. Thanx a zillion for being there when i just had to let it all out.Love ya ikan bilis.
Ramesh-Ur one of the sweetest guys i have ever known and you are my motivator and supporter.U'll always be my "asiriyar". Thanx for the memories at Sentosa.Love ya.
Ranthini-I miss you and all the memories of last year.You have been the best you could be just for ME.You'll always be my little sister and this i promise you.Love you sis.
Euphemia-Abt 5 years and counting.Although there were dark moments in this friendship, im so glad that i still have you.No matter what people say, this is what i have to say about you-->U are beautiful in every way and ur heart is one that gives and gives without expecting anything in return.You rock euphe and i just have to tell you that this friendship means alot to me. Lurve ya loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooottttttttttttttttttttttttsaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa babe.
Ruthra-Someone who has been there in every possible way.U have given me the faith to carry on, the strength to venture forth. Sometimes you just have to irritate me and i feel like ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.But that is just you, simply Ruthra.Thanx alot for all those times when u listened to all that i had to say.When's priyasaki??? : )Lurve ya monkey boy.
Shradha-Alot of incidents have brought us closer and im thankful for having sucha wonderful friend.We have our usual ups and downs, but i remember that you have been a great friend indeed.One who is loving and smiling, just like me.Remember that i'll be here to cheer you on in anything and everything.Never give up.Love ya sweetie.
Azim-My favourite sporty frend who is so enthu about all the pranks and plans that come up suddenly.One of the sweetest guys i have known and azim, thanx for all those seoul garden memories and also for all those funny talks we had."Can we go now???" : )
Judith-Never thought that i would get close to you, but i did.N im not regretting,not even a bit. Im glad we have reached this stage in our friendship where we just have to speak our minds freely.thanx for listening when i was down and also thanx a zilliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiionnnnn for all the moments that we shared.I love you babe.You n Hindrance make me smile.
Gwen-The gal with the sizziling temper and the fussiest attitude.But also the one who is so sweet, caring and full of love for her friends.History has brought us closer and remember "orchard rd" at Ngee Ann.Will never forget you esp coz of that.You are stronger than b4.Give ur best in everything ok? and dun be a hindrance to the society.lol.Kidding.Love ya POH CHIN!!!
Jade-Used to dislike you.But im glad that we able to voice our thoughts openly now.Thats frendship i say.Thanx for all the memories at seoul garden and de sch canteen.Keep smiling and remember that no matter what others say abt you,i promise to stick by you, even though u may be a hindrance at times.lol.Sorri sorri.Know ur laughing now right?HAHA! Lurve ya babe.
DX-My history helpline for last min help.Thanx for all those times when you explained to me the points over and over again.Thanx for the experience and wonderful memories with Cheng Teng and Calvin and also the rest at FOP 2005.
Jillene-Some1 who loves to eat.Just like me.But she eats super fast.lol.Remember the time at Bukit Timah, where we wanted to eat the chinese porridge???Haha.Will never forget seoul garden too.haha.Pw..........is a headache i know.We'll get tru it.Love u.
Johan-I miss all the talks that we had.Miss those times with the rest in Town.Miss the jokes and all most of all, i miss you.Love ya JoJo.
Shima-I love u so much honey.You are so stubborn and i guess that u will say that abt me too.Sometimes its hard to click with some1 who is so like me.But im glad that we click. I miss all our talks, shopping, walking, eating and slacking.Loving you n missing you sista.
Kapil-Though i have known for just a short time.You have been a good frend.One whom i can trust.Take care and bandari...hehe.Love ya buddy.

To all my loved ones-You guys have made me the person that i am today.I simply wanna say that i LOVE u GUYS So much for being a part of my life. Muacks.

Marriot Hotel and updates before Mid-Course

Finally.Exams are over.Well not really over cause there is still the MT AO paper for the actual A Levels which will take place on the 31st of Oct which is the eve of Deepavali.ARGGHHH.Also, not forgetting the subject which every1 hates--->PW! Though exams are over, we actually have to go back to school for PW.I mean seriously what THE HELL!!! Well well, i keep telling myself that it will pass soon and before i know it, it will be the end of the year and just a few more months for my actual A Level papers.I think im gonna do badly for the mid-course exams.I wouldn't say that i din't study.Coz that would be lying.I did study.But!But!But....whatever topics that i partially covered did not come out much esp for Lit,Econs and MT.Well, history wasn't that bad for SEA but the General Globalisation essay for IH totally Killed me.Im dead.Well its over and i guess there's not much that i can do now since time can't be reversed.Thats the reality of life.It stops for no one. Now its just the waiting for the results part that totally sucks.I can't blame any1 except for myself for not putting in enough effort right?

For the people who have been wanting to know about the story at Marriot and the days before my exams....This entry is for u guys---> esp for Shradha,Azim,Bryan,Sanjeev,Deen and Jezz.
On the 8th of Oct which was a Sat-->Miss Wang,Jud,Shrad and I were sitting at TCC at Citylink where Miss Wang was trying to get Econs into our heads.It did werk for abt an hour and then all our minds auto swtiched off.Haha.But the Mcq Q n A was useful and we realised that Diagnostic Test was Suppppppppppppppppppppppper EASY!!! Well, once again my own fault for not studying for de diagnostic test. After getting econs into our heads, all of us left TCC for home. Jud and Miss Wang took the train towards Woodlands while Shradz n i took the train towards Queenstown.I went home to get some stuff before we left for Marriot.Finally it was the meet of the best *friend-in-laws*. Met Shradha's mum and her aunt whom i got to know as Aunty Lily. Together with the whole lot of them, we went for Dinner at Burger King.When i think of BK, i think of Numinder and how he FORCED US to eat at BK when we wanted to eat at LJS.Neway, back to the story ya.After BK, we proceeded to the hotel room at Marriot Hotel and got changed into shorts.We prepared all the stuff that we need for economania later.Guess wat, shradz n i always do what we do before studying?Snacking and more snacking.But did we look like people who care abt what people think abt our unhealthy eating habits??? Haha.The answer is obvious right?Neway once we got ready our stuff, we slacked around for a while after which Shradz's mum made coffee for us and then we proceeded to the 2nd floor where we tried to study.We did study abit, but i guess,we were toooooooo tired to absorb much.Neway it was fun coz of all the teabags(ask Shradz coz its a secret btw close frends) and the Pens.Haha.It was fun and i guess we were eating more than studying.I love chocolate bread and all the sweets that we bought. We came to the 2nd floor at abt 12plus-1am and we left only at abt 4.30-5 am coz our eyes were practically half closed.But once we got to our room, Shradz n i washed up and started disturbing Ashwin.Haha.Im sorry Ashwin. : ) By 6am we went to bed only to wake up ard 8 for breakfast at the lounge(sunday).We ate lotsa different stuff but i guess we just weren't into our eating frenzy coz of the econs exam which was just a day away.After breakfast we went to Ascott's apartments poolside to study econs. I did manage to cover quite a lot for Short Run of which nothing much came out for the econs exams.Haiz.Well, while studying, Shradz n i went on a photo-taking frenzy where we just snapped and snapped and snapped.Shradz even went to the gym.Haha.What a studying session...haha.But seriously i had so muchcha fun except for the studying part.We went to Ascott's abt 11 and only left at 6pm.Haha.Went back to Marriot and met Shradha's dad.The 3 of us ended up snacking at the lounge once again.I simply love the tuna thingy.Then Shradz dad told us to hurry up and finish eating coz Kapil and his family were waiting for us at the Hotel room.Meeting Kapil was unexpected but it was nice to see a frend : )
Basically we just packed up and after abt 30mins, Kapil and his family left. Kapil is like sooo funnie.Haha.Basically he kept disturbing shradha.So mean right?Bad Kapil.Naughty Kapil : )
Neway after that, shradz family,Aunty Lily and i made our way to the lounge to have dessert. OMG...................the cakes were nice but SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRR RICH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think after staying at Marriot, i have began to feel fat. Neway after dessert all of us left for home. Reached home and told my mum abt the teabags after which she gave me a piercing stare and then she smiled.Haha. Was too tired to study for Econs so i slept though Kapil and Mugesh tried to call and wake me up.Obviously it didn't werk.haha.Sorry guys but thanx anyway for all ur support : ) You guys rock!!! Seriously rock.Though i din't wake up to study, i just feel so touched that u guys called me so many times to wake me up.THANX A MILLION. After econs, i was basically trying to cram my lazy mind with school stuff.Now that exams are unofficially over, shradz n i can go abt doing all the stuff that we have planned.Can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!! right shradha?

Now.Its a sat morning and i feel weird not having any school related stuff to do.Oh Ya, there is always PW.Haha.Gotta go coz i have lotsa baking and catching up to do with my LOVED ONES.




WiTh love as always,
-smile-

Don't know

I don't know what's this feeling thats coming over me.I don't know what im feeling.I don't know why im feeling the way i do.Maybe its just exam stress.Hopefully its just that.Was yakking to Bry just now and as usual he made me feel better.U rock Bry.Dun noe what i would do without you. Seriously, u light up my life in many ways and your simply god's gift to me.I LOVE YOU!!! : ) You r one of those who is able to make me laugh till i cry even when im pissed.Thanx for everything so far.

StoooPiD MonKey!!!

Yesterday.I met Faezah,Ricca and Jillene at Woodlands Lib to do our stooooooooopid written report.Haha.We were like supposed to meet at around 10 but Jillene came only at 12pm.Hehe.
While Faezah and i were doing research on the 3rd story,there was a power failure and the library was flooded with darkness.So cool right??? : ) Power failure or not we still had to do what we had to do, which was to find relevant materials for our WR. The four of us discussed on what we should put inside our WR and the tasks were equally divided among the 4 of us.M realli happy that finally we are starting to werk as a team.Better late than never anyway. After photocopying the stuff that we need, Jillene went home,Ricca stayed at the lib while Faezah n i proceeded to Long JS to eat. The tangerine sauce sux!!! really sux!!! Guess what...chin chye was late!!! After saying Hi to Gwen, Faezah left while chin chye and poh chin made their way to Ngee Ann poly.Haha. We walked around in Clementi first and bought lotsa snacks.ArggHHHHH.Im growing fat!!! Upon reaching Ngee ann we realised that the Lib was closed.Therefore we sat in the atrium and started EATING!!!! I repeat...we started EATING instead of STUDYING!!! Haha, food takes priority over books u know, because in order to study effectively, food is needed.For concentration...food is needed.See the importance of food.haha.Hmm, i need de exercise after all that snacking.Well, not that we kept eating only,we also studied!.Right Chin chye??? We managed to clear the writing structure for History essays and the main points for the origins of the Cold War. : ) Gwen's slippers broke and u Know what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She made me walk around "Orchard Road" barefooted with her.See, the things you do for friends sometimes.Haiz.*shakes head*. Naughty gwen.Really naughty. We did talk quite abit in between our study session.Talked abt life.Talked about the problems we faced and how we overcame the shit that we went through. Its ok Gwen, im proud that u became stronger after the problems.Problems will always be there no matter where on earth we are. We have gone through certain stuff in life and though we have lost certain stuff, at least we are stronger than before.WE r de UNTOUCHABLES : ) !!! Life was never smooth babe and whateva that we faced before has taught us valuable lessons and this are lessons that we should be proud to have learnt coz, these are the very lessons which have made us stronger than the rest. After the sharing of the shit we had in life, we went back to studying and we did cover a few MCQ questions for econs. Haha, i managed to do a "graph" question.Woooohooooooooooo : ) Neway after trying a few questions, we decided to leave and Gwen used my stapler to staple the torn part of her slippers together.I tell you, we looked like two idiots who came from some unknown part of the world. We walked slowly because Gwen was afraid that the stapled slipper will give way.Haha.We reali looked like fools.But who cared??? Haha.Maybe some cute guys who might have been wondering whats wrong with these 2 gals man!!! Thank God, we made our way to e shoe shop in clementi without Gwen's Stapled slippers tearing apart.Haha.That gal....haiz.*shakes head again*.Neway it was fun ok!!!How many people would get to walk around "orchard road" barefooted and wear stapled slippers???Haha. At the shoe shop, we were so busy looking for shoes and Wooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooo there were so many nice ones BUT...U see the BIG BUT??? BUT...we didn't have enough money to buy all the shoes that caught our eyes.*sob*sob* At last we managed to get a nice pair of shoes for each of us.Haha.Wooohoooooooooo.I love shopping. Once we walked out the shop with our purchases, Gwen went back in to exchange the ones she bought for 2 other pairs of slippers which was a damn good bargain. Decided to walk to the interchange and on the way, we saw clothes.Clothes and more clothes.But we had no money.Broke.Not really broke coz we still had a few dollars. Haha.Now we know where to shop next.A dollar a day is what we are gonna do.Its a secret recipe.A recipe which will make us happy : ) *grins*winks*. Gwen!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i Want that ADIDAS jacket.Wooooohooooooooooooooooooooooooo, its a secret between us and no matter what, we are gonna buy that adidas jacket.Right Chin Chye??? wooohooooooooooooooooooooo!!! i love that jacket sia.Haiz.Must start saving. Neway after all that "shopping", Gwendi left for the MRT station while i took the bus back home while yakking to Sanjeev.That idiot made me sing songs to him.ArgHHHH.Came home, ate dinner with my Godfather and used the net for awhile before SLEEPING. I really badly wanted to wake up late the next day which is today.But some idiot by the name of Ruthra had to simply call me and wake me up just because he couldn't sleep.Irritating pest.Now im sleepy but i can't get to sleep.ArGGHHH!!! He woke me up and called me stooopid names which i shadn't write here.Its major humilating. Idiot.That monkey never fails to make me smile but yet, at the same time he never fails to irritate me also.I want to sleep but i can't. ARGGGHHHH.Summore i just had a cup of Coffee.Haiz.Stupid Ruthra.idiotic asshole. Monkey without brains.I seriously hope that u would not read this coz i dun wan you to irritate me further.ARGGHHHH!!! stop calling me Shortie ok??? i will buy you alcohol ok??? deaL??? Dream on monkey.Keep dreaming.haha : ) okok i will stop writing more about you coz i don't wan to get beaten up ok??? somebody "mandey" wat.Haha. Oops, did i just let the cat out of the bag??? sorrie.hehe. Neway g0odie luck for ur soccer game.Know that u will win.U always will. I admire ur soccer skills.Did i just praise you???Haha.Neway ur soccer skill is the only thing about you which is nice.Oops. : )KK, enough abt Ruthra coz im sure that you guys reading this would get bored when he's name is mentioned right??? On the account of my readers, i will stop talking abt u Ruthra!!! Right now im slacking away, want to sleep, but can't get to sleep.Haiz.
M gonna try to sleep and once i wake up, i have to cover alot of revision.


-Life is a road
A road full of bumps
Bumps are problems we face everyday.
Everyday is a battle,
A battle that we must fight
In order to survive the bumps that we meet in life.-


wiTh Lotsa LurVe,
-smile-

iRRiTaTinG RasHes.......

Most of my friends and i are having rashes and it suckz....................Just imagine scratching yourself all over in public.ArgHHHH!!!!!Neway i guess it has something to do with the chemical sprayed in school.Hope this stupid rash will disappear soon coz i dun wanna sit for exams and then start scratching myself while writing.Haha.That would be simply hilarious and IRRITATING! Din go to school y'dae coz of i was having rashes and fever. Pei chi scared me by saying that i might be having dengue fever.LOL.Neway school today was as usual.Came to school late after having breakfast with Dx at Macdonald's. : ) Did kinda well for Othello essay and context question. Miss Nathan was very pleased but she complained about taking a long time to mark my very long essay.Hehe.Haiz, have to go and do "The Guide" context question...have to revise for Mid-course later too.I can't procastinate anymore.And i won't procastinate anymore.Or at least try not too. haha.Gotta go...Tata

Tired.Letting go of the past.

Have had a tiring day.At last History mock exam is over.Now,its just waiting for the results that suck.I dun expect to pass, but im really down that my results are gonna be disappointing for Bry coz he has been cheering me on.Im sorry Bry.I tried.Really tried. Having rashes right now and it seems that alot of my schoolmates got sent home today coz they had rashes.Hmm, maybe i won't go to sch 2m0row ya...Neway school was boring as usual. After econs tutorial, i was "FORCED" to eat at Burger King with Numz,Azim and Shradha.ArGHHH, i wanted to eat at LJS but some idiot just had to force me to eat at BK.Haha.Just came home.Gonna sleep.

Sometimes its hard to let go...
But yet, sometimes its also hard to hold on
The past serves as a reminder
While the present keeps us in touch with reality
Whereas the future is something of the unknown
The future only comes
When we let go of the pain of the past...

WiTh LoVe...............

MeMoRieS

All it took was some photos to make me cry. Memories are a thing of the past but yet they have the power to make some1 shed tears. All i had to do was to see the photos before i started crying. Bry, u always said i was your strong gal.The strongest you have ever seen. But,by now u would have realised that i am not your strong gal and never was.It was 2 years.2 years of my life.2 years worth of memories.2 years full of ups and downs.2 years full of tears and laughter.2 years full of hopes and dreams.2 years full of life. I have to be strong.I promised to be strong.I can't let myself down.I can't stop.I have to go on.I have to do what i need to do.I have to throw it all away.I have to move on.Memories.Memories.Memories.Its time for a change.But i can't move.I can't throw.I can't forget.Thats me.For the sake of all my loved ones,for the sake of my dreams, my hopes and my goals, i will move on.I will be the strong gal Bry said i was.Memories will always stay unless i lose my memory.No matter what, i will be strong.The strongest Bry said i will ever be. Thanx Bry, for listening and being there no matter how busy you were. I needed to talk to sum1, n Kapil was msging me on Msn. Told him my current mood n he tried his best to cheer me up.Thanx alot. I will keep my word and be strong.I will move on.I will do all i can to forget.God bless.

LazY!!!

I have been lazy.Really lazy. But i can't really blame myself can i? Neway im way behind my revision plans because of the funeral and prayers that i had to attend. Now, i have lots of stuff on my hands. My mind has been planning but my hands aren't working. I don't have the time to do what i want to do or what i am supposed to do. Time is precious and the seconds are flying faster than a blink of the eye. I have caught this disease-procastination. There is no other cure than me, myself and i. I have to stop thinking that there will always be another 2morow.I have to stop being negative. I have to stop the memories from flooding my thoughts. Due to the funeral, prayers and stuff, i haven really studied for History mock exam which is like 2m0r0w.M goiung nuts.Hmm, Bryan might be taking me for a spin later and im gonna make him buy me ice-cream. : )
He is my everything...one of the very few in this world that i trust. I love you bryan. Buy me ice-cream later kk?

Hmm,something to ponder about...

One of my grandfather passed away y'dae and if ya thinking why i said "one of..." instead of simply "my grandfather", i have to point out the fact that my family is BIG and i have lotsa grandfathers and grandmothers. The issue of Death is very sensitive and his death has set me thinking.Thinking real hard.

Many would see death as an end.An end to everything. But i feel that death is the beginning of another life somewhere else. Nothing and no-one lasts forever. Death is another journey or rather another path that everyone must take. No options given.Thats life. Everyday,every minute and every second, some1 is dying. Even now as i type, death is occurring within me in the form of cells which die and are being replaced by new cells. Death. Many fear it.Well, to a certain extent i do too. Sometimes the thought of death jumps on me unexpectedly and i feel as if i have no control about the wild scary thoughts that runs through my head. Death either brings people closer or it drives them apart. Just checked out this page www.deathclock.com and its scary after seeing how many seconds you have left in this world. Death is basically an idea that has no reality. We can never know the experience of dying. It always eludes us. It always sits behind our awareness, thus being real only in the death of others. Personally, i feel that people are more obsessed with the thoughts of death instead of living life to the fullest. What is it about death that sets people thinking? It is once again the curious mind i suppose. Some people regard death as Public Enemy No. 1 while some people are simply waiting to die coz of the sufferings that they are going through. I believe, death is not for us to decide. When it comes, it has to come. There is a time for everything.

Sometimes i wonder why some people even bother living, because they simply seem to live for others. What's the point of pretending to be someone you are not??? Isn't that lying to yourself??? People always say that they hate liars,but then should they hate themselves for lying to themselves? I believe in living for myself. People should just except you for the way you are. If you cannot accept me for the way i am, then thats just too bad for you coz im BOTHERED about living for myself and not for any1 else for that matter of fact.This is my life n its about me,not you! Never live the life you have for others. Live it like how YOU want it to be. Then i'll truly say that you are living life. If u live for others, you are not living life but simply you are an ACTOR in your own life. Sometimes in life, one gets confused by all de sudden twists and turns,but hey, thats normal. Confusion is part and parcel of life. Without confusion, there is definitely no kick in living life right? Be what you want to be,not what others expect you to be. I am living life the way i want to and this is just ME!!! Either you live with it or you can leave quietly. Sometimes i have a hard time understanding myself and there are times when i get deep in thoughts about myself that i forget about everything.I may not understand myself perfectly but i can safely say that i know myself well. I am what i am and that is all that i am. Accept me for who i am or leave me alone.Coz its my life and i'll live it the way i want to.

LoTsA LoVe...

I realise that everyone lies at some point of time or another. U lie, i lie and everyone lies. Thats life. No one is perfect. Sometimes people lie to escape & sometimes they simply lie for their friends. This shouldn't be something to be proud of but here come the obvious truth---> I have lied before. I mean, who hasn't lied before right? Day in day out, people lie. No one is allowed to judge another person because none of us are perfect. To look at it in a wider perspective, the world is full of liars. Some people lie for the benefit of others while some people simply lie to escape from something that they have done. I remember there was this time not too long ago when i was in sec sch, my teacher punished my classmates and me for skipping remedial classes and lying to her that we were at the library studying, when in actual fact, we were at swensens indulging in ice-creams of all kind. See, i told ya that i am not perfect. Right now as i mature, i tell myself that no matter what happens, i have to speak the truth and have the honesty to answer for my actions whatever they may be. Lies i realise, get bigger and bigger as one lies and lies to cover up the lies told before. Why not save the trouble by simply speaking the truth right? sometimes reality may seem scary and its hard to speak the truth, but one must always have the responsibilty for answering one's actions. To some people, lying is a hobby. They lie and lie to the extent that they find it tough to differentiate between the lies they told and reality.I cannot lie by saying that i will never lie again, but i can always try not to lie. Lies do not help the situation or rather it just makes things worse. So why bother lying? Once again i want to re-emphasise on the fact that as human beings, we are all not perfect. There is a certain flaw in each and everyone of us. Flaws which only others can see and flaws which we should learn to recgonise and thus change for the better.

i Love u babe...Memories keep me going...

Death is a very sensitive issue to many. People are dying every min, every sec and even as i type this, someone is out there fighting for their life. Life is very unpredictable i realise. Death is not an easy issue to deal with and many people find it hard to overcome the loss of their loved ones. Sad to say, i am one of them. This year marks the third year since she died. Her death affected me and is still affecting me each time i close my eyes. Friends till the end was what she said. But she left this world without achieving the dreams that she had always been talking about. She dreamt of having a family. A family with a wondeful husband and the most adorable kids one can ever have. If only she had thought about the people that she was leaving behind. If only i was there to stop her. If only the world was kinder to her. If only!If only!If only! So many If only's are running through my mind as i type this out. If only i had a chance to talk to her. I would have stopped her from doing what she did. If only...she didn't die, i would have another wonderful friend to share my upz n downz with. I miss her badly. I really do. Sometimes i feel that God is reall unfair. She was only 17 when she died. Maybe its fate. Maybe its just supposed to be like that. People come, people go. Thats life i suppose. Everyone stays long enough to make an impact or rather to leave a footprint in someone's life. Well, she left a hole in my heart. A heart that's never the same since she left. She was the one who taught me that friendship is all about giving and not expecting anything in return. She taught me to love myself. She taught me that even the simplest things in life can bring one the greatest pleasures on earth. Right from the beginning of our frienship to till the day she died, she was always teaching me something. Even through her death i learnt something---> that life is not ours to take away no matter how down we are. i love you babe. i always will. U r the meaning to frienship in my dictionary. It is definitely to late to let you know that i have always loved u. But i know that somewhere, somehow, u know that we will always be best friends. Everytime i close my eyes, i see us walking home after school. The memories keep me going. Through the memories, i am living this life, making my existence known on this planet called Earth. I have never gotten over your death and i never will i guess. Thats me. And i want it to remain that way. Many have forgotten but never will i. You remain in my heart,now and forever. Friends Forever.

Finally i am updating my blog. ( : well things have been hectic for the past few days. i feel that im drifting in and out of a world thats changing so fast. School's getting more stressful. Exams r round de corner. Haven been studying productively. But i will n i can make it. i won't give up. Not yet anyway. Certain incidents have shown me the truth about the world that i am living in. a world thats changing fast. a world where people lie. a world where time never stops. the list goes on and on.
Neway econs diagnostic test suck....or rather i suck coz i did not prepare or rather study way ahead for the test. So sadly, the fault lies with me and not the test. 1 week of September holidays was simply like a breeze. Felt it for a sec n voila it was back to sch again. Been pretty stressed due lotsa reasons which Jezz n XW would noe.The pile of homewerk has been growing. Growing bigger and bigger by de day. i keep procastinating.
On thurs, shradha n i stayed back to start on our presentation for "The Handmaid's Tale". Unfortunately, due to some reasons, we got nothing done. Things were cold for a moment. But it was back to normal again. After that, went to Raffles City to collect shradha's b'dae pressie and also to simply relax by walking ard. i needed space. space for myself. space to think. space to feel. On my way home, got 2 cakes ( 1 for shradha n 1 for Mr Yeo). Hope they liked it.
Friday the 16 of September 2005, Shradha turned 18. Finally : ) Scho0L was kinda boring for us coz our minds were on the fun that we were going to have after school. Right after the extra history lesson, Shradha, Azim, Ashwin n i left for Seoul Garden at CWP. It was happening. We were having fun. Cooking for one another n peeling prawns for one another. Sweet rite??? : ) Azim n i bought another 2 cakes...it was heaven. Bluebri cheesecake n chocolate mousse. Yum Yum. The four of us started cooking n we made a mess. A real mess. i even spilled coke all over the floor coz of de 3 of them. But i simply love the time we spent together. As frends, we have made memories. Memories which would cause us to laugh even after 20 years. Ashwin n i created our own special drink which consisted of coke and wasabi. U wanna noe the taste...ask azim or shradha. But try this drink at ur own risk. Fried watermelon n jelly. Yuckz. All thanx to ashwin's "wunderful" ideas n "superb" cooking skills. Haha. Shradha's Ice kachang sucked. Haha. Im sorry babe but thats de truth. Maybe coz there was not enuff syrup added. But well i also noe the fact that shradha n azim added ketchup to the ice kacang wen ashwin n i went away to get more food. Those people r mean rite??? but haha, they drank our wasabi with coke, which was even worse. : ) sorry guys.................but ashwin n i decided to make Shradha's b'dae memorable by giving u guys our special "rootbeer" float. Haha. Ashwin's creations. Never had such fun in sucha a long time. no words can describe the fun we had y'dae. Rite now, i have a sudden craving for seoul garden. After seoul garden, we left to take neo-prints. WE had sucha crazy time taking neo-prints n all that smiling made me tired. But still, it was fun! All the pics rock esp the ones with e props. The pics will be up s0on n have a ball of time laughing ur intestines out ppl. After all that foto-taking...we left cwp for home. It was 9pluz. But e time spent was worth-while. Stonger bonds of frendship was forged among all of us. though the day ended b4 we knew it, memories will be there to stay till de die we die. Came home n yakked on de fone for awhile b4 sleeping.
Before i know it,its sat morning n now its sat nite. haha. i spent the whole day sleeping. Sleeping is my new hobby. Now i feel like im toking like Ruthra. Didn't realise that sleeping is a great way to spend time n re-energise. Woah......now i feel great.realli GREAT! After blogging,i shall go sleep summore n then try to wake up to study. Doubt that its possible anyway. Once i sleep, its so hard to get up. It seems that Shradha's aunt passed away. She's feeling kinda down n i hope that she cheerz up soon. i noe how it feels to lose sum1 who's close to ur heart. i have lost her n my grandmother. Both deaths affected me n i simply couldn't function. The thought of giving up on life was always on my mind utill the day my frend gave me a "speech" on the importance of life. Life is precious. So treasure it people. Love all those ard u. Including the people who hate u. No one is perfect n neither r they. God is so great to have created each n everyone of us. But he is also great to take away the very people we hold close to our heartz. That is because, he simply wants us to realise that life is not for eternity n that no one lives forever. So, simply, treasure what u have. Treasure everything...every single second. i treasure the people ard me. i treasure u n i treasure myself.

Last MiN...........

This is gonna be a realli short entry coz i have an Econs Test t0m0r0w for which i haven realli studied. Well well, i seriously hope that last min studying werks...though i have learnt before that it doesn't. Asking for tooo much rite??? Haha... gotta go n try to cram some stuff into my head.

Wad a daY...

After i reached sch0oL, shradha,DX n i made our way to LT 5 where de werkshop was to be held. Before i sat down, i saw * n told * that CT wants to see us. She gave me attitude by saying wadever lah. i mean i have tried. seriously tried. its not easy being a leader n i have really thought it through. i dun care how im gonna do it...but im gonna quite being de leader... Neway dun wanna think abt * n spoil my bright morning. Neway after de Lit Werkshop at LT 5, we had a short break after which we watched performances put up by other classes n my class. Guess waT....... my Class won de Prize for de BesT Drama... : ) After the performance, all of us left for LittLe India for de amazing race. My group completed it fast but due to some reasons we ended up in komala Villa's Fast f0od restaurant later den expected... Neway its all in the name of learning and fun. After de amazing race at little india... shradha,merissa,pei chi n eshwinder ended up in PS (swensens). Pei Chi n i shared de apple crumble. It was so nice n smooth n in short it was HEAVEN. Merissa n shradha shared de banana crumble n it was also like heaven while Eshwinder ate some kinda ice-cream with bananas on it. But it was definitely not banana split. The 5 of us had a long talk in swensens about our ideal marriage pardners n what do we look for in our pardners. We simply kept yakking away n asking each other questions on what would we do...if our pardner is not rich...not handsome...has no sense of humour n all kinda questions. Haha...i was laughing wen Pei Chi admitted that she believed in Love at First sight... haha...she looks so innocent n haha....................even innocent people do have secrets to hide i suppose. U Go GurL!!! after yakking n yakking at Swensens, the 5 of us finally left the place. Finally. i bet the staff must have happy to see suchcha noisy bunch leave at last. Haha. After leaving swensens, every1 left for home.....................Took de train home n met my mum at de NTUC. Came home after that, watched my 9pm chinese drama,ate my dinner, toked to Ramesh n den i went to sleep.

This update is for Fri, Sat n Today which is Sun...Haha. Neway on Fri i had some extra history lesson which ended like about 2.30p. Met Shradha in De CanTeeN n both of us were like waiting for the guys in "TwisTed" to keep back their musical stuff (they jus had a performance n i missed it). Neway Shradha n i were like so drained out n tired. Shradha's XW was also with us n we were all like relaxing but i have to point out the fact that none of us were enjoying her so called presence or rather to say it nicely, her company. I mean, wat's the rush in going home so early n if u realli wanna go home early, then just go...dun need to spoil all our moods rite??? well well, thats her i suppose. But she has gotta change her attitude or else even the few frends that she has, might leave her. im not cursing her...but c'mon, thats how life werks rite? Neway forget about her coz i've got more interesting stuff to blog about... : ) After XW left sch, Azim, Ashwin, Shradha n i left sch n walked towards the Mrt to get back home. On the way to the Mrt, we were talking about f0od n suddenly Ashwin came up with this brilliant idea about going to eat at causeway point. Shradha n i simply looked at each other n said c'mon lets go. We decided on Jack's place where we had ...erm erm erm Students Meal lah... : ) Shradha n i had the breaded fish set meal while both the guys had the baked rice. Basically, truout the meal, the 4 of us were simply crapping n laughing away. Azim was like giving funnie expressions while eating n guess wat...Shradha n i couldn't finish our meal n Ashwin helped us, which lead to Azim calling Ashwin a dustbin. Haha. After our meal, we had some peachy dessert which obviously contained peach. i love PEACH. : ) Even after that PeacHy dessert, we four of us ordered 2 cakes, one being chocolate while the other being tiramisu. Heaven rite??? guess i would have like gained another 2 more Kg. But i mean, who cares??? definitely not me... : ) Before eating the chocolate cake, we asked the staff for a candle for our table n before we noe it, Voila we had a candlelite dessert. haha. But it was damn fun, esp the part where i roasted the chocolate over the candle. Each of us took a bite out of the roasted chcolate which tasted like.................................. to me. haha. wasn't that bad actually but i din't realli like the taste. It was damn fun man having dinner n crapping. It was a stress relief from daily dosage of sch. After our "candlelight" dinner at Jack's place, we went to take neoprints n this stooooooooooooooooopid Azim did a funnie thing behind my head for one of the pics. N that funnie thingy which azim did made me look like a stooooooooooopid angel who has wings on a head instead of her back. But all in all, FRIDAY ROCKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!--->the neo prints will be up s0on.
Now for updates on Sat, meet Shradha n Rebecca at WoodLands Mrt like about 8.30 all coz Shradz came late... : ) Went to Macdonald's to "take-away" breakfast. Took a bus to sch n den we went to LT 4. The lecturer for the Course hasn't started yet n therefore after seeking permission from Mdm Chitra, the 3 of us sat outside LT4 together with Miss Charlez n started eating out cold Macdonald's Breakfast. After eating, we went back inside n i was seriously trying not to sleep. it was so BORING!!! After the morning session, we had a lunch break. Shradha n i went to Vistapoint with some of the ppl from the Stagestalkers n i ate a Doughnut...a chocolate one. Yummie ...(drooling now...) After eating, we had to get back to sch n then it started pouring. Without much of a choice, we took a caB. The afternoon session was not as bad as the first one... at about 3.45, we had a short tea-break..............n i ate Doughnuts. Small sugar-coated doughnuts. The whole course thingy ended at like about 6.20. After the course, all of us walked towards causeway point but halfway, i left for civics centre. Meet Bryan for a short while n changed into a skirt n top. Went to Dhoby Ghaut n meet Ramesh there....to take de train towards harbourfront. From Harbourfront, we took de shuttle service into Sentosa n walked ard. it was greaT fun man...Walking ard in the nite. But in actual fact, i was kinda scared... the both of us took lotsa fotos......some was scary esp the foto of the both of us with some shadowy thingy behind us...freaky. i have to develop all the fotos............memory sake : ) He was greaT fun lah...haha...all that walking ard made me tired but guess wat, i enjoyed myself n i hope he did 2 : ) After all the walking in Sentosa, we decided to go to Newton for Seafood but ended up near Cine. There were no g0od movies so we went for Seafood near the Youth park. The f0od was nice but once again i didn't finish my f0od. Haha. not surprising i guess. After dinner, i took a cab back home while my Asiriyar(LOL) went home in the other direction. Came home n slept like a Pig. Dead tired man. But it was great Fun......esp where we watched the fountain thingy. the walking was fun t0o....g0od exercise. muahahaha. i need the exercise. Serious. i need it.

Now for today's updates........woke up about 10 plus n did nothing but slacked. Just spoke to shradha n yeah..m gonna Eat n sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! n then try to stuDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Haiz.... well well i gotta ..... with lotsa Lurve Muackz....

PicTures Taken on 31st AuG 2005 aT GreaT worLd City

Some r reaL funnie coz its like SuDDEn....Haha...

My Crazy DaY...

This was taken from my frendster bloG n it was written by me when i was in this rare mood of wrting g0odstuff i think haha... : ) Neway, although this was written a couple of months ago like in June, i still LOVE waT i wrote...Coz i simply feel that Life is a journey with questions along de way. So ya, enjoy ReadinG!!!

Why is that wen gals truly say 'i love you' to the 1 guy who means the world to her, he finds it hard to believe?
Why do people end up creating enemies with their staRez when they could have simply made freNds wiTh theiR smiLez?
Why is it always so difficult to tell the truth to the ones u love when lies could simply HuRt Them?
Why do people say one thing when in actual fact, they mean another?
When a guy makes a mistake, he expects to be forgiven. But why is it that when a gal makes a mistake, guys refuse to forgiVe?
Why is haRd to tell the pers0n u LoVe, how MucH theY meaN to yoU?
Why is it hard to LeaVe the pers0n who Hurts yoU n Love the pers0n who would never Do a singLe thing to Hurt you?
Why do peopLe lie when Liez simply make de probLem biGGer?

Those questions above were written when i was toking to my good frend about life and how unpredictable life is...Hope u guys liked it!!!

Neway, back to updates in my life. Sch is getting pretty stressful. I simply couldn't take it anymore n i broke down in front of Mr Yeo when he was toking about PW. I mean look at it, people think its easy to be a leader...but well thats definitely not true coz i'm not having a good time as a leader. Its been sucky. I simply asked one of my group member whether she has done her Lit Riview for our PW n u noe what--> she totally ignore me. Like what Bryan said, what doesn't break u will only make u stronger...PW is about communicating n she may think that im doing de right stuff as a leader. But honestly i wouldn't know anything unless she opens her mouth n tells me what she feels is de problem rite? Right now im like trying to have a can't be bothered attitude. i mean i have tried. Seriously tried. n what do i get in return??? more stares! In de beginning, her frend told me that she expects all of us in de group to do the werk coz she's tooo bz. Then what about us? aren't we bz t0o? we 2 have lotsa homwerk. Some people simply wan de easy way...by letting others do the werk. I won't coMmenT further. Tues nite, i was like making Teacher's Day cards for my IJC teachers n i realli wanna thank all of them for simply being the best. You Teachers ROCK TO DE MAX!!! Went to sch n basically crapped ard n i had to usher Mrs Yang to de Canteen while Mr Yeo was being ushered by my BESTIE shradha. After de whole thingy in sch, went to Causeway point n bought 2 tops at Esprit. Went to de toilet with Shradz n changed out of our ScH uni... At CWP, shradz met her sec sch frends n she teared. Well well i can't reali blame her. Memories are like that...they hit u hard n BOOm there u are with tears while wishing that u could go back in time. After awhile, Ashwin, Azim n Arwind met us at CWp to shop for harminder's B'dae pressie. We walked ard n looked at everything possible n in de end we ended up with A shirt n a TIE!!! Haha. Hope he likes looking smart! : ) The guys went for Harminder's b'dae party n shradz n i left for GreaT WorLd City. Shradz was feeling damn hungry n my stomach was making noises though i wasn't that hungry. This shows that even stomachs have a language of their own. HaHa. Neway we had a so called late lunch n early dinner at Jack's place at about 5pm. The f0od was FANTASTIC. We had some fish thingy n the ICE-CreaM ROCKED!!! Haha. Took like 6 sets of Neo prints n i think we went crazy coz we haven't realli had a outing aLone in quite some time. The fotos were nice n de both of us were like really doing furnie expressions coz of Eye-Shadow. Haha. She rocks man. We even had one pic dedicated to her... Eye shadow special. Haha. Y'dae Rocked man! These pictures feature de different expressions that i can have... : )Neway de picturez will be in my next post coz its like 12 different pictures n de file in BiG. So enJoY... : )

Met Gesh for a short while to return de library b0okz n den t0ok de train to meEt NaD n Merissa at Cine...where Nad was going to sing at K b0x. i simply luRve her voice man, but sad to say she did not get into the finalz...well her she went off pitch a little bit but overall she was greaT... Gal, remember that its de experience that counts. After Nad's performance, Me,Merissa,Nad, Nad's frends--->Geraldine, Ka kay zhi min went to heeren to walk arD. Haha, den guess wat, once again we ended up taking neo prints...Haha...dun noe why, but wenever my frends n i go out, we will definitely end up taking neo-prints n i dun think its addiction. Maybe its just de fact that we want to help the owner of the neo print shop earn more revenue. That isn't wrong rite??? we r kind-hearted people.LOL. Neway after taking neo print, we walked ard n den ended up at KFC n i ate cheese fries...Yum Yum.... Judith's bf sebastian saved our money wen he got de coupons from a stranger. Haha...de stranger must have been thinking that we must be mad people... After "lunch" at KFC, we went back to K box for de results...Though Nad did not get in, im proud 2 say that at least she was in de semi-finals. Go Nad!!! remember that u Rock. After that Merissa left to meet her frend n Nad,me n Nad's frends ended up at Far East... Found a pair of shoes that i liked.... But...*sob*sob*, that was de last pair n it WASN'T MY SIZE! Basically we walked ard n looked ard for shoes and rings n stuff... After that all of us left for de bus-stop as i was rushing h0me to go to "teKKa" with my family in my G0od-Father's Car. As i was rushing home from Far East, i had to walk pass Forum Shopping Mall to get to de Bus-Stop. As i was walking, i saw this indian guy looking at me.......the feeling was so uncomfortable man! At that moment, i told myself to look up n continue walking as if i didn't see him looking at me... But guess wat.......the moment i looked up....was de exact moment he looked at me again 2... N it was HIM. i was totally shocked.Shocked. He was with a gal...i assume its J_ey coz i have seen her b4 n also because of the fact that he broke my trust once coz of her... I can't be sure that it was him...but i feel n think that its him. Its not that i have anything for him or what, its just that at that point of time, de memories of 2 years of life just came rushing back like waves on de ocean. I called Ramesh n spoke to him.....he tried to calm me down n i felt better after toking to him. I simply truly honestly dun care about his affairs n whereabouts...i mean it.i SEriousLy Mean It. Once again, i hafta say that its memories that haunt me.Not him. Neway Thanx ramesh, for listening to me ramble away...n trying to tell me not to cry wen it didn't werk... But seriously thanx da...i appreciate it. : ) After i took de bus home.........my 2 aunts, mum,sis, my 2 cuz n my g0d-father went to Tekka... Went shopping n ended up in Sakuntala's for dinner. De food there was not great but it was alrite...better than some other places. Came home n watched the tamil movie "Baba" on Vasantham central while toking to my "asiriyar"....Muahahaha... After he kept down de fone, i continued to watch "Baba" until my eyes were nearly closing... Dozed off n i did not have a goo0d sleep...........coz i was thinking about de amount of memories in just a short span of time-2years. Well thats life i suppose......upz n downz n all...but well, im happier now den b4....................right n0w life rockz to de Max........Sch life n my social life is simply WoW!!! : ) Happy n contented with what i have..........so shadn't complain much ya. Neway i gotta go eat my BreaKfasT...........with Lotsa Lurve..............

At LasT iTz a FrIdaE...

Juz came home after a long long day at sch n of coz at CausewaY point too...Haha... shradha went on a shopping rampage n den we ended up in Popular b0okstore with Azim n Xiao Wei. MeeT Jez at "this Fashion" n den came h0me... At popular, i saw Sujith n it was g0od to see an ex-innovian esp one who knows Tanabal's character...Haha... Sujith is like so gifted in Drama...was realli impressed at our first drama session. Keep rocking DuDe...n remember that "ARTz" r0x big time.Hehe... m damn tired.Feeling energy-less...dun even think there is suchcha word, but do i care???NoPe. Gonna slack awhile & den Try to study or rather clear de mountain of homewerk thats been piling up... Got back my specimen racial riots paper...i scored a 21/25 n Mr Yeo was like so happy n impressed. But i guess that happiness will not last long coz wen he marks de next SBQ, he's gonna faint, coz i dun noe what i was talking about. Short n simple, i did not understand the sources. But m still happy though...coz its de first History assignment that i have gotten a High score for... : ) Gotta g0....
---------------------------------WiTh LoTsa LuRve -----------------------------------

Its a UsuaL Day...

Tamil was funnie today coz Tanabal was like using weird terms on certain students...Haha... "coconut tree" and some other trees...which im not sure off. Neway sch today was as usual. Tiring n i was feeling sleepy most of de time. Econs DRQ test was like...hmm no comments coz it was easier then de PC essay test. Well, for de DRQ test, i studied elasticity only n guess what...... FC n VC also came out...haiz... neway its over at last!!! All in all, it was a typical scho0L day...full of lessons n more homewerk................................................ Gotta go finish my othello context question

WitH lotsa luRve.....esp to Jezz...m missing you already Babe....

Y'dae nite i was like rushing tru GP homewerk and tried to study for History(sino-soviet rift)... the key word here is "TriEd". Well well i guess i didn't succeed. Neway y'dae i spoke to Ramesh a.k.a Mesh a.k.a "asiriyar"---->know he'll kill me wen he sees this.Hehe. Neway we were just talking about life n stuff....afTer talking to him, i tried to study history again...but well once again, nothing much went into my head. Went to bed after talking to gesh about de library books Mr Yeo wanted. Today sch was pretty much relax. There was nothing much. Tamil....Haiz.De language is ok but i feel that the Teacher is loading us with extra unnecessary werk... I gotta werk hard for tamil... i haf to. Drama was kinda fun. LiT lecture was also fun coz we watched the "Othello" movie. Iago's acting skills were like so WOW!!! Neway, after drama...i walked to de mrt station with Shradha n we were planning some "secret" stuff...Babe, u will knoe what im toking about. On de way, toked to RamesH and that asiriyar was having some problems with one of his files on his comp....He sent it to me n voiLa...it could be opened. haha....see my magic touch... : )

*Life...is a gift from God
Make the best out of it*

*Cherish the ones around You
Coz u''ll never know when they might be gone*


Before i gO....................i wanna say something to Shradha---> Jc life is tough babe. i know. But we will make it through...We gonna werk haRd n somehow make it to Uni. We can do it. Have de faith,hope n confidence in urself...


WiTh loTsa LuRve..................Muackz

SeLF-DeCLaRed PuBliC HoliDaY(LoL) : )

Its a Public holdiay for me...haha.m dreaming as usual. Didn't go to sch
today coz im feeling sick. Before going to see de Doc, felt like updating
my Blog...actually not much updates...haha. Sanjeev is back from KL n he was so sick that
i couldn't understand what he was saying. Poor guy. People take food b4 they
consume panadol, but that ikan bilis happily ate his panadol and was about to take
dinner after that. WeiRd guy!!! : ) i've got lots to accomplish today.
Lotsa homewerk.Haiz.Its all piling up and im going nutz. Bryan might be meeting me for lunch later n he promised to buy me Ice-Cream n chocolates if im feeling better.Haha.Great rite???im feeling better already = ) . My dear chin chye is msging me...she's also not in sch. Haha. Poh Chin chye's UNITE!!!Actually,im missing school already.But im definitely not missing tamil lessons ; ) Speaking about tamil, i have yet to complete the tamil project and i have to do it by 2day...

People ard me r asking about you...Carol wants US to be there for her b'dae party. But i told her that "we aren't together anymore". It wasn't that difficult for me to speak those words. Before, it was much worse.Boy, im realli glad that "US" is over. We weren't meant to be. We were never meant to be. Life still has to go on no matter what and though "US" has ended, the memories are still very much alive. Im just hoping that u r HaPpY in every single possible way...

Sometimes, God makes us go through so much because he wants us to value what we have and also because he wants us to know that e simplest things in life can also bring greaT haPpiNess. Let us all treasure what we have...treasure the people ard us.Treasure the simplest things in life. So this is for all my close frends----> I TREASURE U!!! U guys RawK my w0rLd.

Gonna see de Doc n0w....
WiTh Lotsa Lurve,,,

M having cramps now...ArgHHH!!!de pain is terrible n i dun have de energy to do my werk...but i dun have a choice. Might not go to sch t0m0r0w coz de pain is reali terrible and im having a slight fever. Hope i get better coz i can't afford to miss History and Econs. Jezz will be flying off s0on n Life without her is gonna be BORING!!! i mean seriously BORING!!! Well,i also noe that she can't bear to leave me n de group of monkeys. Life with them is FUN.Without them...hmmm....life would be like Maths lecture. Haha.Jezz would noe what im toking abt. History test is like t0m0r0w n i understand nothing about the topic.Nothing at all. ArgHHH...im going nutz. Seriously going nuTz. Feel like ZZzzZZzzZzz..............buT i CAN'T n its all coz of the loads of homewerk that i have to do. ARGHHH. Neway Bryan wanted me to write something on Life....so Here it Goes....

Life is a journey...with the sudden turns and twists. Some push on while some give up. The ones who push on are de ones who have true strength in dem and this is de very strength that will push them towards SuCCeSS. Life was never easy n most of us always say that Some people have easy lives coz they are rich,pretty,happy family n yada yada yada...But i beg to differ. Life may be easy for them...BuT the bottom line and de true fact is that--->will they survive when everything is taken away from them??? Think about it. Life is about being urself and being HAPPY about being urself. But many is this world are not happy with the way they r are & thus they start pretending. Wat's the point of pretending and lying to urself when one day, The TRUTH will be thrown back at you??? Life was never a bed of roses n its up to us to make de difference in our lives...firstly, by learning to love ourselves and then start to learn to love others as well. Life may not be easy people...but remember u have to either push on or just give up & die. Life is a battle.Fight It... With LOvE...

Today's PW workshop was not as bad as i expected. Was actually kinda fun & enriching coz i managed to get a feel or rather a rough idea of what de written report should contain. Judith,Cheng Teng,Shrada n i were like completing the ABC's of frendship. While Pei chi was like drawing frogs after frogs on my poor hand.Haha.BUt actually that gal is quite talented in Art. Judith n i were so in "love" with one another that we ended up writing each another's name on our hands.Haha. DX was sleeping.Haiz,that boy claims to be listening while sleeping.Is there such a thing as effective listening while sleeping?i doubt so. Had Macdonald's breakfast on de way to S'pore Sports Sch n azim n i were like rushing tru our f0od.eating like we have never seen f0od in like 10 years. Nigel was basically a crackhead during de break. Hmm, maybe we should send him to woodbridge. He was like so generous in giving people biscuits... but then again,i have to point out de fact that,those biscuits were mine n that monkey was showing everyone that he is Mr Nice guy.Haha.BUt then again, he,azim n shrada r nice people. after de werkshop-->Azim,Nigel,Shrada,Xiao Hui n i went to causeway n i helped Xiao Hui to choose de materials for de b'dae card for her frend. After Nigel left, we went to Mac--->ate ice creams n french fries while crapping de time away. All in all, though my Sat was like nearly g0ne without rest, i can say that it was quite enjoyable t0o...Relief from stress for at least awhile. m s0o tired n simply feel like sleeping. Gonna slack for awhile m0re n then its strictly off to bed for me c0z i dun wanna be tired t0m0r0w when i'm doing the loads of werk that's due on MONDAY. Was watching de debate on central just now.Cedar VS St Thresa's n Cedar won. The GOH Dr Vivian Balakrishnan reminded me of Dappi.Dun noe why,maybe its de smile i think. Neway i gtg...WiTh LotSa Lurve...lOve ya people Esp Jezz...its gonna be hard when u leave.Tears will definitely flow.Im gonna miss YOu. But nothing can ever break this frendship apart... : )

MucH AwaiTed UpdaTez...

This Is GoNna Be my New BloG...De one from FrenDsTer suCkz. : ) Neway i've got lots to blog about and here it goes--> "this is home truly,where i know i must be" the lines of the song that i should have been singing at Padang during S'pore's 4oth B'dae. But guess waT,i was there at like 4pm and before de actual parade could start, Dappi and i left coz we couldn't take the heat. i was feeling so uncomfortable and sticky. Well well i realli wanna go again next year and waTCH De whoLe NDP thingy.N wen i go next year...the first thing that will go into my bag will be a biG RED UmBreLLa...to shelter me from de suN n yeT aT de same time-->show my love for S'pore. Hmm that day was like e first day i also saw dappi (dharshanth)...dun kill me if u read this n i noe u will. haha. im used to using the "dappi" word on all my frends.haha.See wat influence can do.Haha. Neway on de overall...NDP was not NDP at all coz i LEFT. My frends esp Jezz...was so upset that i left. Basically she said that if i just wanted the goodie bag,i should have given her de tickets and she would have gladly gone and not LEFT like i did.But the fact is,i never went coz of that Goodie bag!!! i went coz i wanted to go!!! Never mind babe.we'll go next year together with the monkeys and if possible my sch frends...if i do manage to get tickets for all of us that is. Sch's like so stressful now,lotsa homewerk n extra classes. That's life in a JC i guess.i chose it.So can't complain rite? Met up wiTh Shan(one of my bestest buddies) and basically we ended up crapping and did lotsa talking t0 catch up with one another. Before meeting Shan, i was at Suntec with Nadz,the booty shaking gal(u noe who u r :)...dun get angry ok??? u r simply SexY : ), bernedette,Serina, Judith and her BF...After the singing audition...bernedette,merisa,nadz n i went for like late lunch n early dinner...Bernedette went home n the 3 of us ended up in TaKa with the intention of buying jeans.But guess wat, all of us ended up with nothing. Wanted to take stupid fotos with the stooopid caps and hats that were in de shop...but haha...de saleslady caught us. Major embarrassing!!! Therefore we ended up taking neoprints at HeeRen! All in all was a fun day...with my A23 bunch and also coz i was able to catch up with Shan. He is simply of my frends whom i treasure. Thanx for being there when i needed ya buddy. The min i saw him, i was like...haha can remember de "o" level days??? Shradha n i are like close...hmm...never expected to end up in de same class as her. But guess wat...we did.n if u ask her why, she'll simply say-->"its all fate" n i kinda agree with her. We r going to push one another...we have to do our best & we WILL DO OUR BEST. right shradha??? t0m0r0w got some kind of PW workshop at the S'pore sports sch n im like so tired already...practically 3/4 dead. Its gonna start like at about 8pluz in de morning n end at at about 5 in de evening. ArgHHH!!! well well, its all for my own g0od. Haiz. Lotsa homewerk for de weekend again. Hmm, wat weekend do i have anyway??? got the PW thingy and homwerk to do....so yeah, wat weekend??? once again, tats life in a JC i guess. Hope it doesn't get worse...but i noe it will. Argued with DaD...he n i never got along n i wanna thank Sanjeev for listening to my shortly last week...Jezz u made me feel better.Thanx gal. u simply rock! TaT's all for now i guess, m pretty tired and i wanna finish tat LaTest Harry PoTTer b0ok b4 i go to bed. By de Way,de fotos here are de one taken at Heern LasT Sat after "shopping" at TaKa. WiTh Lotsa LuRve...