i Love u babe...Memories keep me going...

Death is a very sensitive issue to many. People are dying every min, every sec and even as i type this, someone is out there fighting for their life. Life is very unpredictable i realise. Death is not an easy issue to deal with and many people find it hard to overcome the loss of their loved ones. Sad to say, i am one of them. This year marks the third year since she died. Her death affected me and is still affecting me each time i close my eyes. Friends till the end was what she said. But she left this world without achieving the dreams that she had always been talking about. She dreamt of having a family. A family with a wondeful husband and the most adorable kids one can ever have. If only she had thought about the people that she was leaving behind. If only i was there to stop her. If only the world was kinder to her. If only!If only!If only! So many If only's are running through my mind as i type this out. If only i had a chance to talk to her. I would have stopped her from doing what she did. If only...she didn't die, i would have another wonderful friend to share my upz n downz with. I miss her badly. I really do. Sometimes i feel that God is reall unfair. She was only 17 when she died. Maybe its fate. Maybe its just supposed to be like that. People come, people go. Thats life i suppose. Everyone stays long enough to make an impact or rather to leave a footprint in someone's life. Well, she left a hole in my heart. A heart that's never the same since she left. She was the one who taught me that friendship is all about giving and not expecting anything in return. She taught me to love myself. She taught me that even the simplest things in life can bring one the greatest pleasures on earth. Right from the beginning of our frienship to till the day she died, she was always teaching me something. Even through her death i learnt something---> that life is not ours to take away no matter how down we are. i love you babe. i always will. U r the meaning to frienship in my dictionary. It is definitely to late to let you know that i have always loved u. But i know that somewhere, somehow, u know that we will always be best friends. Everytime i close my eyes, i see us walking home after school. The memories keep me going. Through the memories, i am living this life, making my existence known on this planet called Earth. I have never gotten over your death and i never will i guess. Thats me. And i want it to remain that way. Many have forgotten but never will i. You remain in my heart,now and forever. Friends Forever.