I'm SORRY

Im sorry.I know we were supposed to meet at Kallang theatre today.Honestly, I'm just too tired to even step out of my room during the weekends because the weekdays in school have drained me.totally drained me.In the past, when i was in secondary school, resting was kept at a minimal because I felt that life is too precious for me to sleep too much only to be awake to realise that yet another day has passed.Now,sleeping is my favourite hobby.My only hobby. I know its time i caught up with you and the rest.I can't say much because I know another sorry wouldn't help.I'll make it up to you.I promise.Today was supposed to be a day where i would get to see my best friends, good friends and casual friends together, something which rarely happens. But i screwed all that by simply refusing to go.By cancelling out at the very last minute.I fervently hope that tomorrow's ice-cream plans will go according to plan because I promise to keep my promise.I promise not to cancel out even though laziness will drown me till sleep is inevitable. School's been getting boring.Both Miss Vyna and Mr Yeo screamed at my class on Thursday because we were not producing what we were supposed to.It sucks when teachers get angry.Blaming them for getting angry is simply out of the question because the root of the problem lies with us.It is indeed our laziness that sweetly tempts us not to do our work even though we know we should.Time is precious.The race is not over.The end is nearing.I have to start doing something productive.I have to start soon.real soon.All because the end is nearing.


I know saying sorry never helped and wouldn't help but honestly I'm truly sorry for not being there today.Being there with you guys.SORRY.

late.nights.early.mornings.


Leaving for AMK soon.after that will be shopping n lunch with 03.
homework's not done though i promised myself that by Friday i will clear something.
Hell ya, there's always Sunday where i can cram all my undone homework and hate myself for not doing everything earlier.
But, how for many weekends can i really forgo studying?
Because the A's is nearing.soon.
Its either.
Do.
Or
Die.

For all those who haven officially started studying.Pls START NOW!
Its our FINALS.
Its the Last Lap.
Its either...
We make it.
Or.
We don't.

And.
I'm SURE we'll all MAKE IT.

IF we STUDY...

Get a Life

Its simply the simple things in life that matters. Took a long walk y'dae with Sil who put me back on track.who told me that ultimately no one matters.not her.not him.not they.but ME. It was that long walk with her that made me realise how much i miss HER.HIM.THEM. The people who have NEVER FAILED to be there. The ONES who MATTER. The ONES who CARED. Every Second. It amazes me how much we have all changed. From immature, childish kids to serious, mature adults. Though the rest are a tad older than me, it doesn't matter and it never did. Age was never an obstacle.To our friendship. Sometimes its extremely hilarious when i think about the stuff people do.or say.its just so ridiculous.PEOPLE BITCH.Non-stop. I won't deny the fact that i've bitched.but.there's a limit to what i've said or will ever say.Admit it.you bitch too.everybody bitches about anybody and everybody.thats just the harsh truth about life. There are indeed some people in this world who try hard to be neutral when problems arise.Some have succeeded in their quest to be neutral.Some have not. What I simply detest is people who try to be neutral by GOING AROUND telling everyone that they have NEVER BITCHED and will NEVER BITCH because its simply against their religion and principles. Some people pray before they eat because they want to thank god for the food. This shows that they truly believe in God and their religion. Its blatantly obvious that God would not want us to bitch about others. Then why do people who pray before they eat BITCH about others even though they go around telling people that BITCHING is against their principles and against God. This, i simply cannot understand. If u really wanna show that u are neutral and haven bitched, then KEEP UR MOUTH SHUT or else go bang ur head on the wall several times till u get some sense knocked into you, though its a tough job getting sense into the heads of people like u. seriously.i pity the wall. Its people like you who eavesdrop on other people's conversations and exaggerate what u hear. Exaggeration, i believe, is for people who have nothing better to do in their lives, thus causing them to exaggerate DRASTICALLY what they hear, just so that they can see the birth of conflicts. Go, GET a LIFE, PEOPLE! In the first place, eavesdropping on someone else's conversation is WRONG. Didn't your parents teach you that it is WRONG? Didn't your parents teach you manners? You claim that one of your parent is in a good high flying career.Then, why are u like that i wonder.I can't tell you to change your attitude simply because i don't have a right to. What i think you should change first is to stop eavesdropping on other people's convos, second would be for you to either stop bitching or stop telling people that u've never bitched and never will. Because thats an outright lie as you have bitched.alot.non-stop.ask anyone.They'll tell you the TRUTH.SO.GO.GET.A.LIFE.

I always used to say.him.her.them.people change.But.I don't think.I will.But.honestly.I did.I've learnt.a lesson.or rather.many lessons.bitter.sweet.harsh.refreshing.snapping me.back.to reality. I've seen.the truth.embraced.the wild.danced.under.the stars.beneath.the ever darkening sky.I've sung.songs.of.sorrow.happiness.I've touched.the sand.run it through.my fingers.felt the warmth.of.the sun.on my skin.played.in the rain.drenched.slept.under.the sky.dreaming.deep.flying.high.

It feels weird.On the other hand,it never felt right.even from the very start.

People change.its the truth.undeniably a fact too.I mean it has been bothering me for eons.it feels good to let it all out.to let my emotions show.to let the truth speak for itself.I can't possibly hide my feelings any longer.i can't run anymore.Yet,i can't stop to walk the road with you.sounds contradictory.but go figure.it makes sense.at least to me.I tried hard to ignore."Ignorance is bliss", the issue that always surfaces during my convo's with Euphe.Ran.Gwen.Gesh.Jeev.Others. Its indeed true that ignorance brings about a semblance of bliss but can we verily deny the fact that ignorance brings about mental torture too?the agonising debate that you have in your mind.to say or not to say.to do or not to do.I'm trying hard to follow the advice of MK and the rest of my 03 clique.its hard not to bother and to not be bothered.its hard to pretend that the world is perfect.its hard not to delve deeper into issues.But im gonna try.its a promise to them.the mark of a new ideology for me.the road seems long.the troubles seem never ending.the discordances never seem to stop.its a battle. within myself.around myself.its time to let it all go.time for a "brand new" start.the journey's definitely not gonna be easy.But i see a glimmer of hope.a ray of sunshine.faint light.

Finally, the damn depressing destruction of the mind boogling bloody block tests is over. its a screw up.im sure.a MAJOR screw up.shit happens.

I've been noticing something for quite some time.its bothering me.Thank God for the fantabulous wonderful friends.Friends who see me through each day with their words of wisdom and firm support. i treasure.i love.i care.

Its amazing how people can change and i mean CHANGE DRASTICALLY, within a period of 1 week. Well, i've made a decision after careful consideration.i'm gonna stand by what i believe.STRONGLY.FIRMLY.





I'm on my guard.

Comprehending.

Sometimes its really hard to comprehend why people behave the way they do. The world is selfish and denying that fact is just one of the superficial ways to escape from it. Selfishness is a disease, an epidemic.One that spreads and never stops until a kind soul of a different mentality sees it as their responsibility to change the typical mindset of most human beings. Life is short, so why not enjoy, smile and laugh till the cows come home, instead of bickering over the smallest things and hurling pain evoking words in anger? The nature of human beings is indeed one that is of controversy.Its complex, thus requiring one to be critical of oneself in order to understand the depth and perplexity of the entire issue. I was just reading an article about the complexities faced in the process of trying to understand a human being. Its not easy. I assume no one ever said it was. When people argue, for instance a boyfriend and his girlfriend, they would each automatically go, you simply don't understand me nor my feelings(this is just my assumption, though its a known truth). No one can ever understand another human being perfectly.Thats just how it is. Some people even find in tough understanding themselves.Its definitely not wrong if u can't understand yourself simply because understanding oneself comes from the trials and tribulation one faces throughout his journey of life. Well, experience matters. There's no point in shutting yourself out from the world, thinking that you'd be safe because experience in handling the complex issues of life comes from exposure to the world.

Its hard to let go.
But its even harder to move on.
Choices were made.
Hopes were dashed.
Dreams were wrecked.
Days became weeks.
Weeks became months.
Months became years.

The rest is history.

bits n pieces

Plaza Singapura.chicken rice.ice-lemon tea.chocolates.flowers.movies.talks.beach walks.chalet.bbq.letters.colours.taxis.142.music.magazines.Burger King.levis.law.coffee.hugs.chain.earrings.ring.orchard.starbucks.cheesecake.coffee bean.shopping.mp3.stingray.oyster omelette.wine.fried rice.vodka.8th december.smiles.long john silvers.davidoff.balloons.anklet.black.white.east coast.meridian.